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hey ...
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it's been three months !
i just want to let you guys know that my FMP work is going swimmingly and i am looking forward to performing it this month on the 26 !
; u ;
But, I have something on my mind and, to be honest, it's making me feel paranoid.
And it's about my weight.
I've become absolutely overwhelmed by food and diets that I just can't think straight anymore. Honestly, it is so stupid that I am calling myself stupid because I am allowing myself to think like this. But food as become a big part of my life now - as silly as that sounds - and I regret everything I eat. I'm worried about how much cereal I am putting into my bowl, I am comparing my body weight to anime characters, I have gone completely off-the-wall bonkers and mental about the fact that I could be eating either too much or too little.
I keep comparing myself to my friends and I keep typing and browsing sites for healthy recipes and snacks for the day. Additionally, I have been obsessing over what times I am eating. I am taking part in one right now! The 8 Hour Diet - which means you are allowed anything in the space of 8 hours. I cheated - kind of - and only ate in-between 5-6 hours.
I need some advice, some guidance because I am at a loss for everything. People keep telling me that I am chubby, others slim and others tell me that I am a perfect weight. I've calculated my BMI, researched my body shape and tried to find out how many calories, carbs, sugars and other nutrition I should be consuming a day. Honestly, it is stressful and making me have a low mood all the time.
I don't know what to do and it is driving me off the wall!
I need to ask for your opinion.
I need some guidance because I don't know anymore. I keep reading all these blogs about how people have lost weight turn mentally insane, they can't have babies and their blood turns cold as they lose their metabolism and strength.
I admit, I am an open and free person so fire away and say something that will make me think. This is not a journal advertising that I am just seeking attention for the hope of getting compliments and happy comments. I am looking for fierce criticism and opinions from all of you.
To be brutally honest, I almost died.
I was living off of soup and water with hardly any sources of carbs, fruit or sugar in my body. I didn't really eat much. My body went into starvation mode. I was weak and always feeling sleep deprived and what was worse was that my body was physically freezing in the warm temperature.
Please, I am asking for your help.
I know I am being foolish for posting this up and many of you might regard me as a child, but I have problems. Mental problems - both socially and physically and I am having a hard time struggling through life because I don't understand things and people have a lower opinion of me because of it.
Just comment below that you want a note and I will give you one.
Many thanks,
Bowie.
i just want to let you guys know that my FMP work is going swimmingly and i am looking forward to performing it this month on the 26 !
; u ;
But, I have something on my mind and, to be honest, it's making me feel paranoid.
And it's about my weight.
I've become absolutely overwhelmed by food and diets that I just can't think straight anymore. Honestly, it is so stupid that I am calling myself stupid because I am allowing myself to think like this. But food as become a big part of my life now - as silly as that sounds - and I regret everything I eat. I'm worried about how much cereal I am putting into my bowl, I am comparing my body weight to anime characters, I have gone completely off-the-wall bonkers and mental about the fact that I could be eating either too much or too little.
I keep comparing myself to my friends and I keep typing and browsing sites for healthy recipes and snacks for the day. Additionally, I have been obsessing over what times I am eating. I am taking part in one right now! The 8 Hour Diet - which means you are allowed anything in the space of 8 hours. I cheated - kind of - and only ate in-between 5-6 hours.
I need some advice, some guidance because I am at a loss for everything. People keep telling me that I am chubby, others slim and others tell me that I am a perfect weight. I've calculated my BMI, researched my body shape and tried to find out how many calories, carbs, sugars and other nutrition I should be consuming a day. Honestly, it is stressful and making me have a low mood all the time.
I don't know what to do and it is driving me off the wall!
I need to ask for your opinion.
I need some guidance because I don't know anymore. I keep reading all these blogs about how people have lost weight turn mentally insane, they can't have babies and their blood turns cold as they lose their metabolism and strength.
I admit, I am an open and free person so fire away and say something that will make me think. This is not a journal advertising that I am just seeking attention for the hope of getting compliments and happy comments. I am looking for fierce criticism and opinions from all of you.
To be brutally honest, I almost died.
I was living off of soup and water with hardly any sources of carbs, fruit or sugar in my body. I didn't really eat much. My body went into starvation mode. I was weak and always feeling sleep deprived and what was worse was that my body was physically freezing in the warm temperature.
Please, I am asking for your help.
I know I am being foolish for posting this up and many of you might regard me as a child, but I have problems. Mental problems - both socially and physically and I am having a hard time struggling through life because I don't understand things and people have a lower opinion of me because of it.
Just comment below that you want a note and I will give you one.
Many thanks,
Bowie.
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dead .
1 min read
jESUS CHRIST THIS
I'M FLIPPIN DEAD
i found this on a tumblr account
whilst i was doing my work
// cough cough totally not cough cough
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my anaconda don’t want none
unless you DEFEAT THE HUNS, SON
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IF ANY OF YOU HAVE SEEN THIS MOVIE
YOU MUST KNOW I AM CRYING WITH LAUGHTER OVER HERE
IT'S TOO GOOD OMFG
I'M FLIPPIN DEAD
i found this on a tumblr account
// cough cough totally not cough cough
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my anaconda don’t want none
unless you DEFEAT THE HUNS, SON
-
IF ANY OF YOU HAVE SEEN THIS MOVIE
YOU MUST KNOW I AM CRYING WITH LAUGHTER OVER HERE
IT'S TOO GOOD OMFG
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raffle .
1 min read
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thinking .
1 min read
I'm still alive !
and always have been
yeah , college is still stressing me out a bit ,
fmp's a bitch
but overall , i'm okay .
i just wanted to ask you people a question -
if i may . . .
if you were going to buy a tablet
- might i add , for the first time ever -
what type / brand would you get ?
and what programs would you use for your artworks ?
'cause i've been thinking about it and i'm wondering whether to buy one for my birthday which is coming up in a few months time
/ coughs /august
so , yeah , what are your thoughts ?
cOME AT ME BRO
![Llama Emoji 27 (Awesome) [V2]](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/db95d15b-8c0c-4bb6-b743-1beb61737925/d6ujubj-1fccaa05-90ab-40ac-9383-9abe3ed44f7c.gif?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcL2RiOTVkMTViLThjMGMtNGJiNi1iNzQzLTFiZWI2MTczNzkyNVwvZDZ1anViai0xZmNjYWEwNS05MGFiLTQwYWMtOTM4My05YWJlM2VkNDRmN2MuZ2lmIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.uZ90OxQUC4Uz8O2JK7lNqPcPwtXU1K11orZthHavMHM)
yeah , college is still stressing me out a bit ,
but overall , i'm okay .
i just wanted to ask you people a question -
if i may . . .
if you were going to buy a tablet
- might i add , for the first time ever -
what type / brand would you get ?
and what programs would you use for your artworks ?
'cause i've been thinking about it and i'm wondering whether to buy one for my birthday which is coming up in a few months time
/ coughs /
so , yeah , what are your thoughts ?
cOME AT ME BRO
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art giveaway , hosted by 
- laenia.deviantart.com/journal/… - 20th February
- laenia.deviantart.com/journal/… - 20th February
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